by Motavenda Melchizedek
Note: "This is a work in progress...I am writing, adding to, and editing this piece as I learn more about 'The Law of Attraction' as well as my own core emotions that led to this brutal experience."
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But, at the time, when I needed help because I had not seen these truths anywhere, and I was desperate, I was humiliated for it. And, it's ironic too that this has happened often at the hands of those who have claimed to love and respect me more than anyone they have ever known and who have told me that they have never been more lovingly mirrored and validated on a soul level than they have with me. And, they also all know the horrors of my predicament through this life at living at the mercy of my soulmate who has so utterly disowned me and left me on the earth with this work to fulfill without any protection or support at all.
What is lovely though is that now, I will connect to god in the day and months and years ahead deeper and deeper into eternity..and so, will never feel at the mercy of anyone again. No matter how confused they might be and how much harm they can inflict on the vulnerable among them.
I have another friend who is married to someone who loves and despises me and who cannot stand me existing in my identity around my life and my work here on the earth. It is because he is still angry that I split up with him 25 year ago. Considering it a "defiance" of sorts. They reentered my life at the time of the accident and soon this issue arose again because I could feel him desecrating me to her every time they departed. Of course, she brings this up to me and then I am supposed to be cozy in the presence of his active destruction of my most sacred soul level devotion...and when I cannot do this....I am abandoned utterly. And they skip off to their happy life of "love" and union.
I still do not yet know how to sit in a state of love in the midst of all of these things. So, I am not operating in harmony with divine love in these situations. In the days ahead, I will come to understand how to move into love rather than into judgment and fear and into wanting others to see what others have done to me on earth.
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